kicking and screaming.... and then just rambling

ugh. i did not want a blog. this blog was created for me despite my protests because, i'm sure the creator knew that although i did not want a blog, history has shown that i cannot resist a blank canvas. in any media. sure enough, i was thinking today and remembered that this blog was out here with my name on it, and nothing posted but some hogwash blahdeblah that ryan pulled from some dark crevice in his mind where the disgarded scraps of thoughts that are too nonsensical even for his purposes collect. i deleted that garbage lickety split.

and so, as i'm sure was predicted, here i find myself blogging.

i'll give you an easy out now. if you've read this far you've already wasted precious time that you'll never get back, and if you read any farther you're only going to waste more. you don't know me, because nobody knows that i have a blog except for ry who's forgotten all about it by now, and i don't intend to advertise. hell, i'm not going to say anything of any value to anyone. not even me. this is where i'm chucking all of the thoughts that are currently cluttering up my head. all of those teetering stacks of ideas that i keep promising myself i'll examine later are going to have to be stored here. there's just no more room in my brain for that crap, but i'm too much of a packrat to just forget it.

so i don't intend to be smart or funny or original. i'm just rambling. rambling away. that is my calling.

part of the reason that i've rejected the idea of having a blog is because i find that they're usually self-serving and/or pseudointellectual. (this is the part where i piss off whoever's reading this, because odds are, you have a blog). they're either mundane minute to minute updates of peoples' lives (including snarky comments about people and situations in their lives) or self-conscious rhetoric. (let me just post as an aside that i don't read too many blogs because i expect them to exhibit all of the characteristics i just listed, so if yours differs from my description, bully for you and i apologize. keep up the good work.)

frankly my fear is that my own blog will be a prime example of everything i hate.

we shall see.